understanding

If you don’t understand it without an explanation, you can’t understand it with an explanation.
— Haruki Murakami

I’ve spent the fast few days feeling my way through moments and events, rather than my typical rationalization and excessive intellectual analysis. The mat has taught me that I “think about it too much” – which I’ve come to equate to a lack of trust on my senses and the engagement with the present that comes with opening to fully observing. My words for this state I’ve called aimless awareness.

I can’t explain aimless awareness, I’ve just come to trust it. And with that trust comes the somewhat surprising and profound (for me) realization that I don’t need explanations for everything. I just need to experience and be completely present in the absolute present.

To close, enjoy the following quote which further reiterates the point above.

… our feelings are our most genuine paths to knowledge …

~ Andre Lorde