Art distills sensations and embodies it with enhanced meaning.
~ Miguel de Unamuno
reflections from a recent meditation session…
a feeling of pressure and entrainment carries me on an almost unconscious level. like being in a running river, life jacket well cliped on, but being entrained nonetheless. it is a feeling, a physical feeling.
sensations in the body can be the root of our actions, our behaviors, our feelings. what if the sensations were so pervasive, and so interlinked with our thinking patterns that we had created an endless closed loop? like gravity, you cannot know the feeling of not having it unless you go out of your way to eliminate it, or happen to experience by accident, the absence of it, if even for one moment. no amount of reading, re reading and research can substitute for the experience itself – experience, fully lived, can shift ones thinking – ones view of the moment. mindset is not changed by lectures and words – although they have served the purpose in some instances – but by experiences that shift the sensations in the body even for a second.
so how to know what of my thinking creates the sensations of being in a rushing river? when sitting, the imagined fear creates the same sensations as the real fear, acute, localized and real sensations.
“Do not look upon this world with fear and loathing. Bravely face whatever the gods offer.”
~ Morihei Ueshiba
but what if the overall sensations were so pervasive, ubiquitous and transparent that we don’t even realize or are aware that they are the result of our thinking? not the result of real experiences – the result of our thinking!
thinking that is not only conscious – but more insidious, our unconscious thinking!! those scripts that run in the background that keep the conscious scripts running. if sitting reveals the effect that our conscious thinking can have on our physical sensations, can sitting reveal our unconscious scripts and thoughts?
if sitting seeks to tune into the vibrations at all levels, then only through deep listening can the unconscious script be observed, and maybe even heard.
listen, deeply, and follow where the mind flows. the conscious can be swayed by the unconscious, but the unconscious cannot sway ki. ki leads all – conscious through the unconscious.
ki, coming, going or sitting still for a moment, leads the mind (conscious, through the unconscious), which leads the body (sensations, movement, speech, glance and attention). if the mind, both conscious and unconscious, overtake the moment, ki can be taken, directed externally and lead the body.
if your spirit – the realm of ki – is immature, or undertrained, having succumbed to the mind’s power and strength, then our ki is at risk to being taken and moved. our mind is a vicious adversary, one that will never hesitate to grab the upper hand at any time.
In extreme situations, the entire universe becomes our foe; at such critical times, unity of mind and technique is essential – do not let your heart waver!
~ Morihei Ueshiba
training the spirit to give, take and hold ki, will prevent it from being taken by anything, anyone, or any moment. even the mind then becomes no different than any other antagonist – one to be watched, observed, listened and gently asked to play the role it plays – not one of spirit, but one of mind – the master of the body and its biological functions.
watch your mind, conscious and unconscious, always attempting to control ki through taking, sending or holding it.
in some instances, the mind can mimic or even pretend to be the spirit. do not fall spell to this trick. you will know that the mind is mimicking the spirit by the quality of the body. the mind cannot mimic the spirit without the body being engaged. the body will show signs of engagement, of attachment, and will prevent ki from flowing as a result of the background tension that resides. when the spirit is truly present, the five principles manifest, for coordination of mind body and spirit has manifested.
your own mind is your deadliest enemy. your body is the mind’s accomplice. your spirit, with ki as the currency, is truth and life. train the spirit, and ki will be tamed. tame ki, and the mind will no longer be autonomous in its decisions and actions. tame the mind, and the body and its many manifestations as inputs and outputs – manifestations from the mind (movement, glance, listening, touching, speaking and thoughts) – and manifestations from outside (sounds, light, sensations, thoughts, taste and smells) become just that – manifestations.
Always keep your mind as bright and clear as the vast sky, the great ocean, and the highest peak, empty of all thoughts. Always keep your body filled with light and heat. Fill yourself with the power of wisdom and enlightenment.
~ Morihei Ueshiba